the beginning

Lavalife. 

Thats where it all started. 

In 2006, I serperated from my commonlaw husband of 7 years, the father of my kids, and started to look for something better.

Two month after my seperation, I met my current common-law husband.  James, was his name (not his real name, though, I will keep that private).  He was cute and sound fun and light.  After leaving someone that I lived with for 7 years, I wasn't looking for anything serious.  And Neither was James.  It sounds like fun to just get together and hangout or do anything we wanted to, no pressure, no strings, no nothing. 

We hooked up, one weekend after talking for about a month.  We went camping and I brought my kids.  It was fun, even though it was a late night getting things set up and a fire started.  The kids had fun, we were beside a park and they played a lot.  The kids were 2 and 5 at the time.  We sat around the fire talking some more about life and work and still getting to know each other.  We spent the first of many nights together that night.  We went back to our homes the next morning and continued to talk to each other.

We made plans to meet again for the whole weekend, the very next weekend.  James and I decided to have him come out to my place.  At the time we also lived in two seperate cities, a two hour travel time between them.  So we planned the whole weekend, instead of a day because of the time travel and becuase we wanted to see each other.  We decided that even though, at the fist meeting we werent looking for anything serious, we wanted to date.  We began dating on June 14 2006. 

Life was pretty great, we traveled to see each other, normaly it was James making the trek to come and visit us, since I had two kids, traveling wasn't always easy and James still lived with his parents, which also made bring the kids over difficult.  We never spent a weekend apart from that day forward, unless it was training for a job.  We hated being apart, if it was a long weekend, then we spent that together too.

James first sign (although he told me the day we decided to date that he had social phobia and what it was) was when he left his job.  He explained that it was partly do to the social phobia, he just couldn't go back.  But he looked for another job, he continued to come and see us, and life still went on like no biggy.  I never noticed anything scary or strange about the social phobia.  Looking back, I really didn't know what it was or what it could be like.  I don't know if James even realized that life could back fire again since he had it under control so well.  That was the beginning.