Well James is licensed and ready to rock and roll. The only problem is no one is calling :(. Its not helping right now either. I see him struggling with pushing and selling himself daily, he just wants to get out there and do it. He is scared that he cant, but he still wants to too. Now the more time that passes the more he worries though. He is having rougher days right now and i think that is the biggest reason. Our honey moon was amazing and we both enjoyed ourselves a lot. It helped to show him what we can have if he pushes himself, and it helped. But now if course with all the hopes and dreams that he had being washed away from no one calling he isnt moving forward very fast. Seeing that we cant even consider these thing right now is only pushing his depression more.
The kids are gettin older and need/want more activities and that is not helping him either. He doesnt always handle the responsibilities well. Especially if something goes wrong. Bit Irene has nothing right now and its not fair. She gets to watch her sister do Taekwondo three nights a week and she cant do anything. Mostly because we cant afford it. And that drains in everyone. But she is nine now and needs something to focus on too, or she could turn to other things, maybe not now, but she is already kinda a bully at school and i could see it going badly if she didnt have something to focus her energy on.
I dont have the time i want to even blog anymore. This is my life, work work work. Back to the grind :(
