I recently lost a cousin that was very close to the same age a me, just a little over a year older. She had the same aged children as i did. She was married and lived a rough life too. The similarities dont stop there, but they are not lost to me either. She was sick and needed emergency surgery thar just didnt make it in time. That was all it took, to take her life away. The young age of just thirty years old and will never trick or treat again, see her kids grow and fight. Never kiss them or feel their warmth.
I dont want to die. Its one of the few things that scare me like crazy. How could someone that was not unhealthy or at risk be suddenly gone? I dont want that option. That is one of the reasons i have lost weight and tried to become a Healthier person, so that i can be around for longer. I trying very hard, and it may all be for nothing. I could get sick and die at anytime. Ho? Why? Questions that never have answers. I dont want to miss life, or my kids or my husband. I want life. I want to come home every night, i want a more traditional life. I want my life.
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