I hate everything right now. Everything sucks. Feeling so depressed.
Was doing a bit better, until I got home.
I had emailed james and irene, and asked them to listen to a song "proud of the house we built" and to brain storm and find ways to show me love while life has me down. Irene googled it and watched it, but the waited till I came home to brainstorm with me. James didn't say anything or do anything. That was the worse. Made me feel like total shit. Why do I try so hard. I was already trying to figure out why I had to even ask, because people that love me should notice when I am in a shitty mood. But humans arnt mind readers, so I made it simple for them, but since they didn't even talk about it, irene didn't even know what I ment, she didn't understand how to do something to make me feel better. Just want to shut down, and give up. I don't care at this moment. Just don't. What's the point?
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